Hi, good day to everyone. Yeah it is midnight here and I am currently writing this. I don’t know why I am writing this. I just wanna explode the words dancing in my mind. It’s really bad that I am abusing myself in overthingking those things that it’s obvious that I don’t have nothing to do with. It’s a busy day for me dealing with young ones.
Here I am now writing, I don’t know if there’s a point. I just want to put and share this. How my baggages heavy, you know the feelings that you have to share it with your family but you have to declined it and keep it with you. Because you don’t want to bother them. And they know that you are stronger enough. But they forget that you are just human, that you may burnout, and needs to comfort too or just a hug. Or hear you out to express what’s inside your chest.
How I wish they saw me crying too, hear me crying. It is so nice how they adore you for being such a nice and independent person. A tough as they can see you out of your closet. But deep in it is the hiding you trying to be a strong woman and independent person coz you think it is right thing to do.
Awe, I think it is over. It is really I need to share it. I know that I am not alone battling this kind of situation. Being soft is good too, sometimes we have to show it. It is not degrading ourselves but it is a courage to deal with. To feel them that we need them too.
Balang araw hindi na ako luluha habang pinagmamasdan ka
Sa larawan ng puno ng ating alaala at pangarap
Balang araw hindi na ako hihikbi habang pinakikinggan
Ang ating musika na himig nating dalawa
Balang araw hindi na ako matutulala sa kalumbayan
Habang ako ay nasa ating paboritong lugar
Balang araw masisilayan din ang aking mga ngiti
At sigurado ako na di na ikaw ang dahilan ng aking mga ngiti
Ikaw man ang dahilan ng pagkaguho ng aking mga pangarap
Huwag kang mag-alala babangon ako at mangangarap muli
Sisiguraduhin ko na di na ikaw bahagi nito
Balang araw mangangarap akong muli para sa sarili ko
Hindi na hihinto ang mundo ko para hintayin ka pang bumalik
Balang araw kusa nalang akong maglalakad
Hindi dahil sa pagod na akong hintayin ka
Kundi dahil ito ang nararapat, tunguhin ang aking landas
Na wala ka upang paglalakbay ko’y matagumpay
Gaya ng nais ko.